Slowly Drifting

When everything you know and everything you are used to fade away, people, friends, family, and life styles, do you pray? Do you fight for them and hope that in some way you will get them back? Or do you simply fade away as they once did? lost in time. Only to be looked at and remembered as a mere picture on the dresser, slowly covered in dust.

I have chosen to be that picture. I am not telling anyone, no family or friends, that I am joining the Marines. only people that will know are the people that read this. Yes, Im slowly drifting away from everyone. I feel like it wont matter much. To me yes. For others, not so much. . .

Im not afraid of death. Im more for it in one since. I feel like I have lived my life for the Lord. Yes it has had its ups and downs, but Im ready for change. Change of friends and change of family. I want to see the world before I die so why not do both at one time? ( PLEASE NOTE: I am not wishing for or expecting to die.)

I have had 6 friends kill them self and in NO WAY WOULD I EVER DO THAT !! Its just I feel so sick of being there for people and no one really and truly being there for me. Not my "Family". Not my "Friends". Not even my "Church".

I just feel. . . well. . alone.

So to my "Family"
"Thanks for showing me how much I mean to you as a son and brother."

To my "Friends"
"Most of you, sucked. and. . . well. .  yea."

To the "Church"
"Stop trying and just be. No one is perfect, so stop acting like you can be.
P.S. - Smoking is not a sin. I will just meet Jesus sooner. Thats all."


Real friends, you know who you are.
Real family, you know who you are.
Real church, I will see you in your own time.